Soo long

Finally after so much of time.. I have got time.. no one would believe so it could be taken in other sense that I finally remembered that I have a blog account courtsey to some guy who works in stock and always pokes my ass for minting money.. names u all r thinking is not correct.. because at this time I also know him by some userid name... Hoep that chatter is female... pray for me guys and gals if you too read it... anyways I will write some more after some break.. today I am feeling bit nostalgic about those dreamy states.

Finally

I tried so hard to continue my daily routine of writing, had collected ideas too but dont know what happened when. But finally I am going to write something today.
It is such an asshole feeling which totally goes to ur nerves...I had opted to this film industry just out of my fun and maybe others recognising me. The trick of getting others attention is to do something which noone does or atleast rare one does. I also did this, got attention and finally enjoyed it too and might have done some cool stupid things, which led me to finding room on this short notice. The huge amount of sun in such few days though whatever days would have been I had to ask from some friends, so earlier the better. Though time factor gives me chance to juggle this idea that from whom and how much but a lot of headache too. In life I always tried other things just for sake of avoiding headaches. Anyways I was collecting money but their seemed to be no hope and thsi hopelessness stung me so deep that ground seemed so near from 3rd floor but I was in not such hurry to touch it. Finally phone call from a friend came and Voilly I got money. Hope once again leaping high and everything seemed fine.
Though in this whole story this rise and fall of hope was not the main theme. I called myself asshole for misbehaving my roommates and at other time I was planning to torture him sometime. This whole rage was boiling inside me or still boiling inside me. This jump from one cool and composed being to furious and violent me brought my pathetic self outside. I felt so helpless or maybe I was helpless thats why changing grounds to reduce burn of my ass.

Wholistic but step by step
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Most of the time in my life I had been thinking or looking at things in wholictic point of view. This made things so unclear. Its form seemed so big to me . Now when I really knew what is film editing then I realised that editing is most crucial part of life. It joins whole and creates concept of whole. Though editing is mostly used in movies but if we look at process of editing then it was always with us. This made life interesting. Now I know if I have to do something then I will start from somewhere and try to make my way with small pieces, someday I will get not real but something of real.

Improvisation
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Whenever I worked with people I usually failed because they always failed. This thing tormented very badly to me. After a while I really got scared of this. NOw when I am working I found that when I failed or fail to dictate somebody to do something then I should usually not tell everything to him just part by part to them. I should command to them not leave them on their own to improvise, then what is the use of yours.

Maturity Vs Imaturity
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Whenever we use above words then we usually mean how much that guy is adaptive to situation. How many dificult situation he can handle.

My first blog

Hello to whoever is reading this..though calling u whoever is sounding like bit distant to u but in some way u r....and if I had personally sent u this then u can put ur name in place of "Whoever"..first thing first the name of this blog...as it is not my first blog but still I named it..reason is so simple tat every new start of mine gives me a feeling of first timer...tat was long ago when I posted my blogs and it was so long ago tat I am even forgetting which site I posted it to...at that time I came across this blog thing and that was my first site of that type so I felt there will not be many and it will be always easy to track it down which assumption fall flat in near future of that past when I saw many blog sites..I dont know this size of many helped me to forget that sites name or just my bad memory..but one thing is really true which I always feel that once I hear a new concept and I feel amazed and a bit depressed that why I never thought of it or if thought something like this why I never started...then I start thinking on other lines and my mind gets next kick when I see that there are many things comeing on that concept which was totally new to me and I thought its done...such thing happened to me recently too with these cricket matches...I was never interested in cricket matches, as a matter of fact, but money movement always fascinated me..the semi god status of those 11s always hynotised me..then came idea of 20-20 worled cup and I was first doubting of its success and my doubt never got fruit, me myself enjoyed it...reason may be coz India won cup...then I started feeling this was good concept, when will I get chance to bring such great ideas...then came IPL though earlier they were planning on this line but their boring and not so big names association got delayed..they started a bit early and torned apart..this time I was not thinking of fate of ICL coz I had some more important jobs in my hand...but attention was not meant to be drawn from such revolution...everyone around me started talking of riders and devils...I felt out dated and dipped my spare brain and only thing which got my attention was money, the team owners are earning out of it...Though someone had also told me about great matches which I hope would have been but I had no time or television to watch any..so I am quite satisfied with this question , "how much team owners making money out of it?"...being a noncricketer it seems I talked a lot about cricket..its time to say Bye in hope I will return again.